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From [personal profile] pipisafoat's Genderqueer FONSFAQ, [personal profile] zvi asked:
What is the difference between being genderqueer and having an unusual but still binary gender presentation? Am I correct in thinking that being transgendered does not necessarily make one genderqueer?

Before I start, [personal profile] viklikesfic addressed a lot of this in hir response to this question here, as noted on the FONSFAQ post!

My answer: being transgender does not necessarily mean one is genderqueer, no. That's the easy part of this question! Transgender people come in a wide variety of genders, both binary and non-binary.

Thing is, this question and the first point sort of bring up the issue of 'are genderqueer people transgender', which is really complex and a divisive issue within the community.

For a start, some people want there to be a divide between being cisgendered and cissexual, and some people don't, as that implies that one's body parts and cell structure are very specifically and irrevokably gendered as male or female, rather than being parts that are gendered depending on the person who has them. And there are binary people, both cis and trans, who feel that non-binary gender people who don't transition in any way or who don't have dysphoria shouldn't fall under the trans umbrella.

Now, not everyone's experiences are equal, and there are people with more or less privilege of various types. I wouldn't presume to understand the POV of a binary trans woman and the very serious issues that arise due to societies having bigotry towards that identity.

But at the same time, there are issues and problems politically related to that which arise due to my own gender identity (ask me about British women-IDed people's office wear). Are those connected to the issues faced by, say, a butch woman? Absolutely. But my refusal to meet normative gender standards differs from that because of my desire for radical change, to be seen outside where I was assigned in the binary system. A butch woman still wants to be seen as a woman, what she was assigned.

Which gets us back to the first point: I've identified as genderqueer since I was about nineteen or so, and I have to say that for me, at least, it was something I knew in my gut. It's...I've always had a very real inherent reluctance to classify myself as woman or as man, because neither of them feel accurate. Some days I have masculine moments, some days I have feminine ones, most of the time I feel neither but not nothing. Even if I'm okay with my female-assigned-at-birth parts, much of the time.

It's a hard thing to explain, because it's in my mind, my identity, but basically, the spectrum doesn't have a place for me.

Now this is only really dealing with my personal gender identity. It's not an exclusive look into the genderqueer mind, or the non-binary mind (they are different!), but I hope it helps somewhat with parsing things out.

Comments, questions, criticism--all welcome.
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So, in Sunshine on Leith, I threw in a minor character who is both human and genderqueer/non-binary/neutrois.*

Because seriously, I started thinking a little about all the SF fandoms I love--now, admittedly, I run in particular circles, but in the future, why the fuck aren't there more humans of non-binary gender?

Okay--I freely admit this is a completely rhetorical question. I know why there aren't more characters in canon or fic, because much as it sucks, the concepts are not considered mainstream in the dominant paradigm and many people are afraid to write about them for fear of doin it rong. Still, I have half a mind to put it to a challenge and set it forth in [community profile] transfic or something.

Though then I'd have to write a 101 and things and I just do not know.

* Which of these, I'm not sure. Dr Ayala says it's none of my business as we only know per in a professional context. Also, I don't know how Gaila knew per is per pronoun...handwavey magic!
rhivolution: text only: "I hate so much about the things that you choose to be." (sheer disgust: TO (US) quote)
Seriously, I think that yours truly or anyone else out there in fandom land interested in social justice could be the fail police, and it would be a full-time job, but SORRY NO SPOONS. Suffice it to say, at the moment, I do not have anything to say about the massive trans* and genderfail fuckup that is the latest to come out of fandom.

Except that:
- The complete lack of apology and massive defensive idiocy by the author makes me want to vomit.
- I feel a bit numb. Not being angry is a bad sign.
- You know, honestly, while fail does happen across the scope of fandom, why does this keep cropping up in RPS of late? Are the answers difficult ones like what Vito and Thoracopagus were saying this week? (see Primer post for those links.) I must chew.

Collecting links, though. Please be warned that there are assault triggers in the author's comments and possibly in the posts due to discussion.
original report by [livejournal.com profile] sinuous_curve
analysis by [personal profile] sohotrightnow
analysis by [personal profile] the_future_modernes
analysis by [personal profile] cofax7
analysis by [personal profile] inkstone
followup of even MORE fail by [personal profile] sohotrightnow
a few pointers by [personal profile] tanyad
reaction and analysis by [livejournal.com profile] misscam
analysis by [livejournal.com profile] globalfruitbat
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ETA: To anyone coming from Hack Gender...my apologies for not allowing anon posting on this journal. OpenID does work, though.

I've never been very good at being a girl.

Now, lots of people, lots who identify as women, say that. But the fact that we all may have trouble, even in the smallest amounts, with our gender display, doesn't mean it's not true every single time.

This isn't to say that I'm absolutely terrible at it, or that I hate feminine things. In fact, that would almost make things easier, because then I could label myself, instead of hanging out here in the void. At Smith we always went on about how labels are a bad thing, but to be honest, I find them handy to refer to myself in certain cases. Identifiers, in my mind, make up part of me, like a signifier makes up part of a sign in semiotics. Not that I'm going to impose this on anyone else...but it works in my head.

But at the same time, I don't particularly like identifying as 'woman'. I don't personally feel 'womanness' in any sense of the word that I've previously encountered (as I said, I went to Smith, I've seen loads). I don't do feminine particularly well. But I am not overly masculine, I know I'm not 'man' either. I'm not even butch, or boi, or tomboy or whatever.

What I am...well, genderqueer maybe, and I use that label at times, but at the same time, I feel like that identity implies more fucking with display of gender than I usually do. I'm lazy. I could do more if I wanted to. But I seriously cannot be bothered, either with makeup or with wearing a hat.

Instead, I have short hair, but not overly short; it's short because it's easy to deal with and because I look far better with short hair anyway. My preferred uniform is jeans and a t-shirt--which must fit well but not too tightly, much to the chagrin of most of the current style in Britain. And I'm fairly happy with the female body I got at birth. (Happy enough, that is; I don't know anyone of any sex who is perfectly happy with their body all of the time.) But I'm also tall and not overly curvy, with a strong nose and chin. I sing second alto and my grandparents used to mistake my brother and me on the phone before his voice broke.

I am stuck in the middle, a cypher.

So I'm an opportunist. I pick and choose when I feel like it, but everything that I wear feels like drag. Dresses are drag. Suits are drag. When I worked in Corporate America, I fully knew and felt the meaning of the term 'corporate drag', though it probably was more keen for me than others. I like lipstick and fedoras and a-line skirts and pinstripes, and to hell with the stuff I don't want.

This is, of course, a very privileged place to be, on so many levels. As a white, middle-class American with a supportive partner and a relatively open culture, I have the privilege to play around a little bit, though my mother gives me hell if I don't shave my pits. I don't directly face a lot of the danger that comes from not meeting the societal sense of 'normativity'. I do try to continually fight the insistence on binary that seems to permeate the cultures I inhabit, and I want the haters to get to the goddamn left.

But under it all, I'm selfish. I want to know what the hell I am, and 'just you and that's good enough' isn't. Because when you don't know if there's anyone else who feels this way, it...it hurts. And much as I hate to sound like a whiner when I have things relatively good, the pain is still there.

Edit (again): [personal profile] littlebutfierce has a good post on this topic too.

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