rhivolution | weekend update, or; things make a post

- anxiety. anxiety. anxiety. I'm sort of still stuck in the CPU overclocked stage most of the time, but I'm still reluctant to take this to the doctor, because the idea of switching meds is unpalatable to me. I cannot afford that kind of downtime, though I'm not running at peak either. I could probably get a fit note if I needed it, but I still have this thing running through my brain that says that I would never be really sick enough for that. hate.

- Potentially linked, I had dysphoria yesterday. It had been a while. Not fun.

- Things I am (perhaps irrationally) afraid of doing: alienating people on Twitter. not finishing my Festivid on time. sucking at my job. spending money. being upset about how I look.

- I am frustrated with myself for being too anxious to use Tumblr for anything but RP, because it seems nearly everyone I know is bloody on there and I should be if I want to keep up with them. But I really, really cannot use Tumblr for fandom and/or social justice. Cannot.

- Speaking of my Festivid, I'm massively irritated with the fact that all my old video converters no longer seem to work with Mountain Lion and upwards, except for MPEG Streamclip. Any advice? I'm playing the render-as-I-go game because of it, and I don't really have time to figure out what to do in this case, but going forward it'd be useful.

- On that same note: Mavericks upgrade, y/n?

- Welcome to Night Vale makes me happy. I still have headcanons for you, one of these days.

- I'm not doing a What I Read/Watched sticky this year because it is too damn guilt-inducing for me at the end of the year. If you're really curious, I'll still be updating my GoodReads periodically.

- I am doing better in life than this post makes out, I just am having an anxious. I swear.

Questions? Comments? I like comments.

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I liked the Mavericks upgrade, but I don't use any really specialized programs that might break from an upgrade, either, so YMMV.

::hugs:: Sorry about the anxiety thing. Wish I had helpful words to offer!

Would be curious to hear why you don't like tumblr!

I don't have that many anymore, tbh--though it's heartening to hear it doesn't break things much.

And thank you! I...I feel with Tumblr that I am compelled to repost everything I like and signal boost every sad or angry or frustrating thing I see. And it all moves really really fast and I miss the actual content amidst the ephemera, I feel like.

Yeah, I hear you; it took me a long time to get used to tumblr's perpetual-motion cycle, and it's been weird to realize that I'll never "finish" tumblr or keep up with it, or anything. (Lo these many years ago when I was in high school, I actually was able to "finish" the internet—I read every article in the Yahoo listings at the time for areas I was interested in. Those were the days!) Weirdly, though, I find that the pace of tumblr turns into a filtering mechanism of sorts—I end up reblogging only those things I really care about, after a time.

YMMV, though, obviously. :)

I second the liking the Mavericks upgrade, but my reasons mostly have to do with the whole dual monitor thing.

As far as video conversion goes, I've been using this one lately and it works wonderfully for me. http://www.macroplant.com/adapter/

Some day I will be able to make a dual monitor work for me. SOME DAY. And thanks for the rec, I will poke at it.

(heh, was about to email you bc of Twitter--I am assuming that this comment means I'm just a blowhard on there and we are still good?)

Dual monitors make me a happy happy Regimus.

( We are totally still good. There's just only so much acknowledging of Awful Things I can take before my anxiety ramps out of control and it's been a hard winter. <333 Promise. See. TOM QUINN!!!! icon totally signifies general coolness and probably fistbumps or something. Still planning on visiting in March too assuming that I can get the aforementioned anxiety under control and actually get on the plane. )

Totally understood--just wanted to make sure it is that and not that I have done something terrrrrrible.

I hope like hell you can make it over here.

Nah, nothing terrible.

I feel like I'm allowed to be scared, y'know. Since I've never done the whole leaving the country thing before. But I also have to keep telling myself that I managed to get in my car and drive from here to CO by myself on what was essentially a whim and that I can do this too.

I have no opinion about Mavericks, but re: anxiety I have many feelings so ♥♥♥

Thank you, and likewise and OMG PHILIPPE ICON

Night Vale makes everyone happy.

I have not encountered anyone who does not like it, this is fact.

Even my father was professing interest in Night Vale when I described it to him!

I so hate the thing about maybe switching meds & just dreading the adjustment period, so I hear you on that one. I am sorry the anxiety is so bad right now. ;__;

Hearts, and thank you, m'dear.

I can't do fandom on Tumblr either (and SJ there is so vicious I get mad even at the people I agree with). I finally made feeds for the handful of people I really didn't want to miss and I read them on DW.

I didn't know you were on Goodreads. What's your handle there?

Yes, exactly! SO MUCH FRUSTRATION. I read people when they link on Twitter to their posts, that's about it--and that's how I know to find solid content.

My handle's the same as my Twitter one. Feel free to add.

Comments are good.

[kicks all the brainweasels]

Yes! Though don't kick them too hard, they shriek and scratch.

<3 anxiety sucks.
Tumblr SJ is a special brand of wtf.
Do you rp there? Can you explain to me how it works even? I can't figure it out.
I get your goodreads updates and I like seeing what you're doing.

Thanks, babe. And hoping things are going okay for you as well. wibble.

I RP at Justice Lounge--I can't really EXPLAIN how it works, save threading works via reblog. It's a bit unwieldy but eventually you get used to it. I was completely confused about it but adjusted quickly; if you're with a small group, it works okay, though it can be nearly impossible to find archive stuff if you need it, which sucks. But then it's also good for posting ephemera in line with character interaction, like journal entries and faceclaim pics and music.

I can't imagine doing it with more than a dozen players, too much to keep up with.

we hates the weasels.

I think of Tumblr as TV. I get to choose the stations, that's my only interaction.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

augh brainweasels whyyyyyy.

HEARTS.

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