weekend update, or; things make a post

[rhivolution]

- anxiety. anxiety. anxiety. I'm sort of still stuck in the CPU overclocked stage most of the time, but I'm still reluctant to take this to the doctor, because the idea of switching meds is unpalatable to me. I cannot afford that kind of downtime, though I'm not running at peak either. I could probably get a fit note if I needed it, but I still have this thing running through my brain that says that I would never be really sick enough for that. hate.

- Potentially linked, I had dysphoria yesterday. It had been a while. Not fun.

- Things I am (perhaps irrationally) afraid of doing: alienating people on Twitter. not finishing my Festivid on time. sucking at my job. spending money. being upset about how I look.

- I am frustrated with myself for being too anxious to use Tumblr for anything but RP, because it seems nearly everyone I know is bloody on there and I should be if I want to keep up with them. But I really, really cannot use Tumblr for fandom and/or social justice. Cannot.

- Speaking of my Festivid, I'm massively irritated with the fact that all my old video converters no longer seem to work with Mountain Lion and upwards, except for MPEG Streamclip. Any advice? I'm playing the render-as-I-go game because of it, and I don't really have time to figure out what to do in this case, but going forward it'd be useful.

- On that same note: Mavericks upgrade, y/n?

- Welcome to Night Vale makes me happy. I still have headcanons for you, one of these days.

- I'm not doing a What I Read/Watched sticky this year because it is too damn guilt-inducing for me at the end of the year. If you're really curious, I'll still be updating my GoodReads periodically.

- I am doing better in life than this post makes out, I just am having an anxious. I swear.

Questions? Comments? I like comments.

Comments

[regcommathe]

I second the liking the Mavericks upgrade, but my reasons mostly have to do with the whole dual monitor thing.

As far as video conversion goes, I've been using this one lately and it works wonderfully for me. http://www.macroplant.com/adapter/

[rhivolution]

Some day I will be able to make a dual monitor work for me. SOME DAY. And thanks for the rec, I will poke at it.

(heh, was about to email you bc of Twitter--I am assuming that this comment means I'm just a blowhard on there and we are still good?)

[regcommathe]

Dual monitors make me a happy happy Regimus.

( We are totally still good. There's just only so much acknowledging of Awful Things I can take before my anxiety ramps out of control and it's been a hard winter. <333 Promise. See. TOM QUINN!!!! icon totally signifies general coolness and probably fistbumps or something. Still planning on visiting in March too assuming that I can get the aforementioned anxiety under control and actually get on the plane. )

[rhivolution]

Totally understood--just wanted to make sure it is that and not that I have done something terrrrrrible.

I hope like hell you can make it over here.

[regcommathe]

Nah, nothing terrible.

I feel like I'm allowed to be scared, y'know. Since I've never done the whole leaving the country thing before. But I also have to keep telling myself that I managed to get in my car and drive from here to CO by myself on what was essentially a whim and that I can do this too.