weekend update, or; things make a post

[rhivolution]

- anxiety. anxiety. anxiety. I'm sort of still stuck in the CPU overclocked stage most of the time, but I'm still reluctant to take this to the doctor, because the idea of switching meds is unpalatable to me. I cannot afford that kind of downtime, though I'm not running at peak either. I could probably get a fit note if I needed it, but I still have this thing running through my brain that says that I would never be really sick enough for that. hate.

- Potentially linked, I had dysphoria yesterday. It had been a while. Not fun.

- Things I am (perhaps irrationally) afraid of doing: alienating people on Twitter. not finishing my Festivid on time. sucking at my job. spending money. being upset about how I look.

- I am frustrated with myself for being too anxious to use Tumblr for anything but RP, because it seems nearly everyone I know is bloody on there and I should be if I want to keep up with them. But I really, really cannot use Tumblr for fandom and/or social justice. Cannot.

- Speaking of my Festivid, I'm massively irritated with the fact that all my old video converters no longer seem to work with Mountain Lion and upwards, except for MPEG Streamclip. Any advice? I'm playing the render-as-I-go game because of it, and I don't really have time to figure out what to do in this case, but going forward it'd be useful.

- On that same note: Mavericks upgrade, y/n?

- Welcome to Night Vale makes me happy. I still have headcanons for you, one of these days.

- I'm not doing a What I Read/Watched sticky this year because it is too damn guilt-inducing for me at the end of the year. If you're really curious, I'll still be updating my GoodReads periodically.

- I am doing better in life than this post makes out, I just am having an anxious. I swear.

Questions? Comments? I like comments.

Comments

[rhivolution]

I don't have that many anymore, tbh--though it's heartening to hear it doesn't break things much.

And thank you! I...I feel with Tumblr that I am compelled to repost everything I like and signal boost every sad or angry or frustrating thing I see. And it all moves really really fast and I miss the actual content amidst the ephemera, I feel like.

[riverlight]

Yeah, I hear you; it took me a long time to get used to tumblr's perpetual-motion cycle, and it's been weird to realize that I'll never "finish" tumblr or keep up with it, or anything. (Lo these many years ago when I was in high school, I actually was able to "finish" the internet—I read every article in the Yahoo listings at the time for areas I was interested in. Those were the days!) Weirdly, though, I find that the pace of tumblr turns into a filtering mechanism of sorts—I end up reblogging only those things I really care about, after a time.

YMMV, though, obviously. :)