burning at the centre of time

I'd have more complex thoughts on the OTW situation, but cannot really be arsed as I have a headache and had an IBS attack last night (just as I was finishing my Kaleidoscope submission, ffs). But I have to agree with dj_kittycat in that it is pretty symptomatic of many an org and cause I have known in the past, though that doesn't make it right.

So I guess my main public statement to tptb of OTW and every other fan group (DW included)...and, frankly, to Smith College over their bullshit this week...is: Stop fucking with us.

Seriously. For various reasons (including some very strong neuroses), I do not give my money away lightly, even the small amount of it that has gone to you. Critically, in something that prevents most of the heartache I have over this, do not pretend to be progressive when you won't take progressive thought into serious consideration.

I can cope with you not being progressive, it's something I've learned how to fight. But don't fucking dare to tell me about your inclusivity and openness and oh god diversity if you're not prepared to take serious--and frankly, difficult--discussions on board.

in other words, don't blame me, I'm voting for Sanders.

Regarding the Smith!fail I posted about last night, there is now a petition circling.

Still planning on writing a letter to tptb though, once my migraine stops and I get this covering letter done.

Have to fill out my five-year page for Smith. I really do not feel like doing it, though animangel pointed out that I've done some interesting stuff in five years. Hm.

Are we (am I) doomed to find our lives not quite exciting enough in comparison to others, even when they're interesting to outsiders? I don't know.

Sonny's yearbook from high school
Is down from the shelf
And he idly thumbs through the pages
Some have died
Some have fled from themselves
Or struggled from here to get there
Sonny wanders beyond his interior walls
Runs his hand through his thinning brown hair
- Paul Simon, "The Obvious Child"

Still thinking on the stuff from last night, still not sure what I'm gonna do. (thx to azuire for defusing me.)