rhivolution: David Tennant, looking frustrated and holding up a sign that says 'ARSE' (u r a wanker: so says David Tennant)
2016-05-05 10:23 pm

nothing like a reminder that subcultures have power structures

Hello! I am just here to publicly state (in a location visible to all, rather than users of a particular archive!) that I think Franzeska's apologia is:
- lacking coherence
- lacking in historical rigor
- most importantly, a trash fire that is full of shit.

All of which she dresses up a little bit in wink-wink-nudge-nudge and statements that seem to be going one way but actually are going the other.

So many people I know have been disgusted and hurt by this over the last day or two that I feel I gotta say something, that I am so fucking tired of this shit, because it's exactly what one sees in Western society and at present in certain other subcultures that will remain nameless. The people who have had structural power* freak the fuck out when they don't have 100% control of the narrative anymore.

Fandom is not a space apart from these kinds of actions and reactions. I will throw a copy of Dick Hebdige's book on subcultures at any acafan who disagrees.

And I'm certain this will all get dismissed by her and others as exactly the kind of thing that they mean, god those people are such bullies.

Seriously, fuck this noise. I have been in fandom for 15 years and just...fuck.

That is all. I highly recommend/appreciate the stuff folks have been saying on Twitter, by the way, especially Rukmini Pande and Nico.

* I don't mean power over the canon or over media. I mean power in fandom-the-subculture, which is a thing, even if that power isn't necessarily large in the scales of the greater world.
rhivolution: Q gets comfy on the Enterprise-D bridge (why helllloooo.: Q)
2015-10-26 10:48 pm
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merry ain't in my vocabulary - a Dear Festividder letter

Dearest Festividder,
Hi! I'm Rhi, I'm a thirty-something white geek of complex gender who is loud on the internet sometimes. I'm an immigrant from the US now living in Scotland, which is not as sexy as it sounds. Trust me.
no sleigh bells, no Steuben glass )
rhivolution: Beverly Crusher in the captain's chair. Text reads 'Status report: no fucks left to give.' (all the fucks I do not give: Beverly Cru)
2015-10-22 09:45 pm

my post is pastede on yay

Icon (on Dreamwidth) actually is not particularly representative of my feelings, which are more like 'eh' in terms of 'no fucks'.

- I have gotten back into knitting, yay! Knitting for my wee nibling (who will turn one next week, wow) does make things a bit easier, because they are small and therefore things progress quickly and I feel better about life yay.

- Right, I need to sign up for Festivids before I forget. NEED TO. And Night Vale novel! And Ancillary Mercy! And the books I got in Berlin at Borderlands! Clearly, I have bought too many physical books lately and I am worrying about having reached Peak Bookshelf, which could be ameliorated by me not borrowing books (e and paper) from the public library left and right. Not that that will ever really happen.

- In other ways, some parts of fandom are doing my head in. I don't really want to talk about it in public. Trust no one, carry a big stick.

- I need to plan for the Smith 10 year reunion, which means I need to think about money and plane tickets and renting a car 'cause Mom will still be in school and and and. Due to Memorial Day being wicked late this year and colleague schedules (read: everyone in my office is getting married next year), I need to be back here before Wiscon, which is a bit disappointing, but I shall persevere.

(Getting to know some cool folk on Twitter makes me vaguely want to run a con of my own in Glasgow for Cool Fans Living North Of The Home Counties. I'd call it something like ConeCon with the tagline lots of planets have a north!. But my organizational skills are terrible, so it'd just end up being people sitting in a pub anyway, talking rubbish.)

- My clin psych has recommended muscle relaxation techniques for me to try, less as an anxiety flareup curative and more to keep general equilibrium* during the rest of the time. Anyone tried this at all? I'm slightly worried about either falling asleep or it having no effect whatsoever, but I have committed to giving it a go.

* I used another ten-dollar word in a work email earlier this week, as a natural conversational word, noticed after I sent it, then felt vaguely relieved when no one called me out.
rhivolution: Janelle Monáe is giving you a low look (fuck gender: Janelle Monáe)
2015-08-05 10:21 pm
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perennially out of can

Well, I am back in Britain and no longer on jetlag time, two weeks later, and mostly just getting by. Glasgow has had nothing approaching 'summer', not even the British variant of summer (e.g. a pleasant temperature and not raining), which is disheartening as we come into August and I think of those Stevie Nicks lyrics* and anticipate the seasons to come.

If you needed to be convinced about climate change--and I'm hoping if you read my journal that you don't--the weather here in Britain for the last few years is quite good anecdotal evidence. Gwyneth Jones wrote a YA book under her Ann Halam pseud half a dozen years ago or so TEN YEARS AGO, says Wikipedia (Siberia), where the jet stream has moved due to global climate change, leaving Scotland a tundra, and while I don't buy that exact outcome, I do buy the notion that the weather here is becoming increasingly fucked.(Incidentally, I enjoyed that book a lot more than I have any of Jones' writing for adults. I've written about this before here and elsewhere...her issues with mothering and motherhood creep.me.out. Thinking on it more, Jones sorta is the Christopher Nolan of feminist SF for me, in that her work is very technically interesting and impressive, but I just can't quite get emotionally attached to her characters. They leave me rather cold.)

On reading! I did manage to finish Ancillary Justice and Ancillary Sword on holiday, and perhaps I was the only person who liked Sword better, I'm not sure. I've sorta parsed out my reasons why and hope to do a blog post one of these evers.

From a foodie perspective, I also finally read Gabrielle Hamilton's 2011 memoir (Blood, Bones, and Butter). While Hamilton's got...some personal issues that I feel could really use some deeper self-analysis...I really identify with her career narrative:
- falling into a job (cooking)
- feeling like she's not changing the world or using her potential, so going back to school (writing)
- finding out that the reality of doing that dream as a career is not great
- going back to old job for productivity and meaning and eventually developing that into a career
And then she ends up writing a top-rated memoir, publishing essays, and winning awards for her writing too, which leads me to, at least, a bit of hope for my media self. I just need to actually Do The Thing.

On fandom--thinking, very vaguely, about getting back into RPing again, because [personal profile] lizzy is convincing, but that would also mean that my brain needs to be better at not freaking out about reading friend lists/circles, thus not flaking out. I hate flaking out.

So yes, stuff is stuff, hello, tell me interesting things.

* "And the summer became the fall/I was not ready for the winter", from 'Nightbird', though the FM folk here probably guessed that.
rhivolution: image of a turkey sandwich on a white background; the word 'harlot' is printed in black in the corner (harlot: night vale community radio)
2015-04-19 09:57 pm

here again (vworp vworp)

As ever, things make a post.

- content warning: mental health )

- On that note, I've been working on a real name blog post for like, three weeks now, and I swear it will soon be done. It's just...it feels like my writing is disjointed, all bits and pieces (ze says, writing a goddamn list post).

- Also on that note, what do you do when the place you end up in, after long consideration, is on the fucking fence? What use are you then? Do you just nope out of things for the future and be considered useless by all parties? /cannot cope

- In light of the sad news about Jonathan Crombie's death, I'm a bit spooked by my recent Festivid choices and look at AGG fandom. I sort of want to rewatch the vid (and the canon, now that I have a copy), but I think it'll make me sad. He embodied Gilbert for me, just as Megan Follows is Anne and Schuyler Grant is Diana; I had the Anne of Green Gables miniseries fotonovel when I was a kid, so they're sort of indelibly impressed on my mind and were long before this vid. My heart goes out to his family and friends.

- I am not gonna talk about Star Wars or Daredevil because I do not want to be Captain Buzzkill. I will talk about Welcome to Night Vale with any and all comers, though!

- I would like to vid a whole bunch of snarky multi-Doctor DW vids, as I've been watching a bunch of old!skool Who thanks to the Horror channel* going Freeview recently. I get daunted as hell by the size of the canon, though, by the amount of stuff I would need to acquire and log/mine for detail. Suffice it to say, I have lots of DW feels again...they're just not new!Who feels, which is a bit strange.

* 'Horror' is really just a catchall for 'speculative fiction'. Right now they're trying to convince me that The Stand is scary, which it is, but not how they think. God, I love that story, even with its faults. I even love that mini, though some of it is painfully bad. Gary Sinise makes up for a lot. A LOT.
rhivolution: Karen Gillian dressed as Amy Pond faces off against a TV camera (me versus the camera: Karen Gillan)
2015-03-17 10:21 pm
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VID: Take the Sky (Forsake the Ground) (Anne of Green Gables [1985], G)

Title: Take the Sky (Forsake the Ground)
Vidder: Rhi ([personal profile] rhivolution/[livejournal.com profile] rhipowered)
Fandom: Anne of Green Gables (1985 mini)
Music: James Taylor, "Never Die Young"
Warnings: none
Length: 04:12
Summary: Anne changes Avonlea; Avonlea changes Anne.

Notes: Made in Final Cut Essentials and MPEG Streamclip, for [personal profile] grammarwoman in Festivids 2014. Many thanks to my dear husband for his assist with getting the source--unfortunately the R1 remastered DVD version was next to impossible to get here in time so this one's a bit grainy, which I'll pretend adds to the charm.
In terms of vidder's thoughts, this vid was nearly set to the Barenaked Ladies' 'Light Up My Room' in an attempt to keep it Canadian, but in the long run, Taylor's track about growing up with strange but beautiful peers just fit better. As ever, things are OT3 shippy if you squint and look sideways...and by the way, where the hell is all the f/f Anne series slash on AO3? There is a serious gap, people. Get on that.

source details, download, streaming embed, and lyrics. )
rhivolution: Karen Gillian dressed as Amy Pond faces off against a TV camera (me versus the camera: Karen Gillan)
2014-11-18 10:37 pm

Wee update, I suppose.

First of all, thanks so much to everyone who left me love in the love meme. You're too damn sweet and better than I deserve.

I turned 31 yesterday, and realised that 'Rock 'n Roll Never Forgets' is both too correct about being that age and completely off base. (Then again, I can't help but wonder if being 31 in 1976 wasn't demonstrative of a different maturity level than the age has today. ymmv.) On that note, for those who don't play along on Twitter: I became an aunt there is no gender neutral term for this relationship in any of the languages I can speak wtf the doting relative of a nephew a couple weeks back. This is also driving home the age thing, oh my god.

My return to blogging is going well and I am glad for it! I also wrote a speculative poem over the weekend and am now not sure what to do with it, as I don't write poetry generally. Would anyone who reads speculative poetry be able to beta read it at all and tell me if it's rubbish?

I have thoughts about SFF fandom but am holding fire right now.

If you are interested in my Festivids thoughts/planning, please give me a shout? No one on my circle/flist is my recipient.

My anxiety issues still running high but I am making progress a bit in CBT, which is something, at least. We are going on a long weekend this weekend and I am pretty sure I need it like none other, so yes. Good times.

Huh, perhaps I'm doing a bit better than I thought.
rhivolution: Yves Adele Harlow from The Lone Gunmen, smiling. Text: 'YVES' (always on the run: Yves Adele Harlow)
2014-05-28 09:37 pm

(no subject)

Just as an FYI: Matt and I have safely returned to Glasgow along with all baggage (though slightly smushed but still edible boxes of US foodstuffs*) and raging cases of jetlag.

I have lots of thoughts about WisCon and stuff that's recently come out, which I will address later. Also, I'm really sad I missed the GOH speeches on Sunday--I've read them and they are both epic in different ways, both thoughts we should take to heart, and...I'm shitty at words right now. I did get to briefly meet and fangeek a little awkwardly at NK Jemisin.

I am sad about the death of Dr. Maya Angelou and irritated at the respectability politics that she's being used for already.

I am also angry, as those who follow me on Twitter know, about what went down in California and cannot really put thoughts together right now.

I am trying to read four or five books at once which is probably ill-advised.

I am really damn happy for [livejournal.com profile] lizzybees and S omg.

TO WORK TOMORROW, MY X-MEN.

* Realised I forgot to put this in the post: Cheezits, Cheetos, Quaker Oatmeal Squares, Kraft Macaroni & Cheese, and other bits and pieces.
rhivolution: band tour shirt showing Captain Picard with a guitar. Text is 'Darmok and Jalad at Tanagra September 1991' (language geek: TANAGRA '91!)
2014-03-01 11:59 pm

(no subject)

How fantastic was today's Night Vale? THIS MUCH. (There will be something big soon, I am certain of it. Also much jealous for you people who have gone to the live shows or are there now because you're in Noho.)

How excited am I about Wiscon but terrified I won't get a membership as I need to book plane tickets first? THIS MUCH.

How busy has this week been from a work perspective? THIS MUCH.

How much am I not talking any more about Loncon or about the recent sideeye towards FAAB people in queer gaming because I have said everything I wanted to say on Twitter? THIS MUCH.

How much does this poem by [livejournal.com profile] alankria reflect my own feelings about my gender?
I struggled with words:
woman—fine
wife—fine
mother—fine
but not quite true;
they sat on me like plain jewellery: gleaming, comfortable
but mute.

THIS MUCH. (So much love.)
rhivolution: Ace is pensive and/or upset (say your life is on fire: Ace)
2014-01-11 07:15 pm

weekend update, or; things make a post

- anxiety. anxiety. anxiety. cut for potential triggers? )

- Potentially linked, I had dysphoria yesterday. It had been a while. Not fun.

- Things I am (perhaps irrationally) afraid of doing: alienating people on Twitter. not finishing my Festivid on time. sucking at my job. spending money. being upset about how I look.

- I am frustrated with myself for being too anxious to use Tumblr for anything but RP, because it seems nearly everyone I know is bloody on there and I should be if I want to keep up with them. But I really, really cannot use Tumblr for fandom and/or social justice. Cannot.

- Speaking of my Festivid, I'm massively irritated with the fact that all my old video converters no longer seem to work with Mountain Lion and upwards, except for MPEG Streamclip. Any advice? I'm playing the render-as-I-go game because of it, and I don't really have time to figure out what to do in this case, but going forward it'd be useful.

- On that same note: Mavericks upgrade, y/n?

- Welcome to Night Vale makes me happy. I still have headcanons for you, one of these days.

- I'm not doing a What I Read/Watched sticky this year because it is too damn guilt-inducing for me at the end of the year. If you're really curious, I'll still be updating my GoodReads periodically.

- I am doing better in life than this post makes out, I just am having an anxious. I swear.

Questions? Comments? I like comments.
rhivolution: David Tennant does the Thinker (Default)
2013-11-23 09:25 pm

saved the day

Rather liked Day of the Doctor. Not without its issues; I have come to accept it's never not going to be problematic. But as a whole: very well-constructed, some rather clever takes on Davies-era and old skool Who style, Clara being useful instead of standing around being ~special~, limited angst around Billie Piper's return. A very subtle Scotland joke in there, blink and you'll miss it. And Jemma Redgrave!

And truth is, I probably liked it so well because I remembered why I do so love Ten. I miss being Ten.

spoilers. )
But overall, it was a damn sight better than I anticipated and a very good tribute. Worth a watch, says me.
rhivolution: image of a turkey sandwich on a white background; the word 'harlot' is printed in black in the corner (harlot: night vale community radio)
2013-10-22 10:46 pm
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(no subject)

FYI: Updated my Festivids letter, if you're interested (or are my vidder wondering when the hell I'll get off my ass and update!).

As for my assignment...I knew what I was going to do within 30 seconds, which has me mildly alarmed. Hmm.

Work has been hardcore of late, so please forgive the delay and radio silence. Good job, brain.

Eventually: posting about Night Vale headcanons, if anyone cares! Do you care? Let me know!
rhivolution: Abed from Community with his camcorder (pop culture/film = OTP: Abed Nadir)
2013-10-19 10:37 pm

festivids letter - 22 October 2013

Hello Festividder!

Apologies for not getting this done sooner. Sometimes my brain is special, go me.

Thanks so much for making me a vid. I'm pretty much open to a lot for these canons, particularly what I've specified in the signup. But as a rule, I'm fond of: character studies, deconstruction of canon (especially through queer/race/gender/disability lenses), worldbuilding, and STUFF WHAT GIVES ME LOTS OF FEELS.

Music-wise, I'm a classic rock geek (check my last.fm in my profile if you're really invested in picking me something musically I know) but can go with basically anything as long as it's emotionally evocative and well-suited to the source and theme.

A couple further notes on individual fandoms... )

Thanks so much again!

xx
rhivolution: Mulder's I Want To Believe poster from X-Files, with a TARDIS in place of the spaceship (I want to believe: X-Files/TARDIS)
2013-08-20 10:01 pm

(no subject)

Augh, been ages since I posted here, like a dumbass. Things are fine. Work is busy like nothing else due to huge project looming, relationship is good, the weather is classic Scotland (read: lousy), I'm RPing a bit more and it's a lot of fun.

In the fandom sense...GRAVITY FALLS? Probably the cleverest, darkest 'kids show' I've seen in a while, and that includes DW. Like, early Community levels of clever, this.

I will say it's not without problematic aspects, mind, it being made in the US right now, but I, well, I never thought I would love a Disney show. Seriously. My only other complaint is that there's not a ton of good fic on AO3.

...by the way all of you who are into Night Vale might get a kick out of it. hint. hint. I am starting to listen to WtNV and am liking it so far, enough to keep listening, anyway. It sort of reminds me of my fondness for Prairie Home Companion in my youth, except more fucked up and less Lutheran.

How are you? What should I be paying attention to? Why did I start to tag this post with Tumblr RP tags?
rhivolution: Abed from Community with his camcorder (pop culture/film = OTP: Abed Nadir)
2013-06-10 10:31 pm

VID: Fire and Water (Pumzi, gen, Teen)

Let's not talk about how I'm posting this Festivid five months after the original reveal and two weeks after it played at [community profile] wiscon_vidparty (thanks to [personal profile] chaila, okay? Okay.

Title: Fire and Water
Vidder: Rhi ([personal profile] rhivolution/[livejournal.com profile] rhipowered)
Fandom: Pumzi (2009)
Music: Aṣa, "Fire on the Mountain"
Warnings: minor incident of police brutality
Length: 2:50
Summary: One day the river will overflow (and there'll be nowhere for us to go).
Notes: Made in Final Cut Essentials with the help of VisualHub, for [personal profile] livrelibre in Festivids 2012. Many thanks to her for providing source material, as it's not available here in the UK for reasons only Focus Features know.
source details, download, streaming embed, and lyrics. )
rhivolution: the Doctor, pointing at his shop name badge: The Doctor/here to help (Here to help: The Doctor)
2013-05-05 12:16 am
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(no subject)

Finally saw Avengers, nine months after everyone else.

Like, that wasn't bad? But it wasn't great either? idek. As with Inception, I'm sort of not understanding some of the shipping that dominates fandom, the film was a good twenty minutes too long, and someone needs to hit Joss Whedon with the 'not as clever as you think you are' stick.

But overall it was OKAY and now I can go see Iron Man 3 without feeling too left out.*

Except that I can't be arsed to see IM2. Oops.


* I am not actually dubious about Shane Black as we love Kiss Kiss Bang Bang in this household and will not hear much said against it.
rhivolution: Mulder's I Want To Believe poster from X-Files, with a TARDIS in place of the spaceship (I want to believe: X-Files/TARDIS)
2013-03-30 08:29 pm

you're so beautiful (a beautiful fucked up man)

Firstly! Thanks to everyone who commented on my last posts about excite news. Anxiety's prevented me from thanking individually but yes. You are lovely.

Now, for Doctor Who! The Bells of St John's--not bad. Not the bestest thing I have ever seen on TV, but then again Brand New Companion stories aren't for me, in my experience.

In pros/cons:
+ I like Clara, she is quite good.
+ Low fail content!
+ A good chunk of creepy!
+ A not wack Amy shoutout!
+/- Interesting use of Data Stuff Overlay, though I felt a little odd about it because I see it as such a Sherlock thing and therefore not really an ostensibly-kids-show thing? If that makes sense.
+/- It's not spoilery to say that Moff's Problem With Twitter makes a brief and very deliberate 'did they just say what I thought they said' appearance. (Actually, I wonder if the whole damn theme of the episode isn't sort of an extension of that Problem, but I could write meta on it and I need to do other things this evening.)
- As usual (regardless of showrunner), plot pacing and tension is an issue. You'll know what I mean when you finish the episode.

Spoilers for the 50th anniversary, if you missed it earlier on Twitter. Contains RP angst. )
rhivolution: sepiaish image of J Brooks as Ghanima Atreides, positioned defensively against a wall & brandishing a knife (cuts like a crysknife: Ghanima Atreides)
2013-02-01 10:54 pm
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a bene gesserit witch

So I have just been failing immensely at fandom lately; I meant to rec my Festivids gift maybe two weeks ago, and time just keeps passing really damn fast wtf life it's not like things have been interesting.

Anyway, some lovely person made me a wee Leto/Ghanima vid, Before It's Too Late, using the beautiful SciFi miniseries as source. And also Goo Goo Dolls, which is damn fine with me, because I still do love them. I now must go back and watch it all again soon. All, like, six damn hours of it.

Warning for twincest of a canonical fashion,* though nothing explicit, mind.

And I don't bloody have a signed copy of my vid to post craaaaaap failing at fandom some more.



* Also, in case you're here and didn't know, warning for a source that has enough canonical Orientalism to be used as a case study for Edward Said; the mini, even whitewashed, is less guilty of it than Herbert's original texts at least, jfc.
rhivolution: Matthew Macfadyen is pensive, text: jeux sans frontieres (games without frontiers: Tom Quinn)
2013-01-20 09:41 pm
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(no subject)

Oh self, if you do not do the Tom/Zoe/Danny prompt that's in Porn Battle THIS year, I am going to be really angry with you. It means someone besides you and [personal profile] regcommathe and [personal profile] thatyourefuse ship them at least a little, and this is something we want to encourage.

All reading this are encouraged to kick me in the ass until I write at least 500 words.

I'd write the Kate Spencer/Cameron Chase one but as Justice Lounge people know, my headcanon is that they've had more than a fling. ijs.

(btw, Festivids post coming soon--I got a lovely shippy Children of Dune vid which means I must watch that miniseries again. This will be done once I get out of the seriously bleh frame of mind that I'm in right now, gdi.)
rhivolution: Abed from Community with his camcorder (pop culture/film = OTP: Abed Nadir)
2013-01-04 10:56 pm
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signal boost

[personal profile] leanwellback has been put in serious financial straits on top of the emotional pain due to his partner [personal profile] fizzyblogic's unexpected death just before Christmas.

In light of that, [personal profile] such_heights is taking fanwork commissions, for people who make donations to help James (leanwellback) out. Please considering helping out or signal boosting if you can.