rhivolution: Ace is pensive and/or upset (say your life is on fire: Ace)
Rhi. ([personal profile] rhivolution) wrote2014-01-11 07:15 pm

weekend update, or; things make a post

- anxiety. anxiety. anxiety. I'm sort of still stuck in the CPU overclocked stage most of the time, but I'm still reluctant to take this to the doctor, because the idea of switching meds is unpalatable to me. I cannot afford that kind of downtime, though I'm not running at peak either. I could probably get a fit note if I needed it, but I still have this thing running through my brain that says that I would never be really sick enough for that. hate.

- Potentially linked, I had dysphoria yesterday. It had been a while. Not fun.

- Things I am (perhaps irrationally) afraid of doing: alienating people on Twitter. not finishing my Festivid on time. sucking at my job. spending money. being upset about how I look.

- I am frustrated with myself for being too anxious to use Tumblr for anything but RP, because it seems nearly everyone I know is bloody on there and I should be if I want to keep up with them. But I really, really cannot use Tumblr for fandom and/or social justice. Cannot.

- Speaking of my Festivid, I'm massively irritated with the fact that all my old video converters no longer seem to work with Mountain Lion and upwards, except for MPEG Streamclip. Any advice? I'm playing the render-as-I-go game because of it, and I don't really have time to figure out what to do in this case, but going forward it'd be useful.

- On that same note: Mavericks upgrade, y/n?

- Welcome to Night Vale makes me happy. I still have headcanons for you, one of these days.

- I'm not doing a What I Read/Watched sticky this year because it is too damn guilt-inducing for me at the end of the year. If you're really curious, I'll still be updating my GoodReads periodically.

- I am doing better in life than this post makes out, I just am having an anxious. I swear.

Questions? Comments? I like comments.
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[personal profile] riverlight 2014-01-11 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I liked the Mavericks upgrade, but I don't use any really specialized programs that might break from an upgrade, either, so YMMV.

::hugs:: Sorry about the anxiety thing. Wish I had helpful words to offer!

Would be curious to hear why you don't like tumblr!
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[personal profile] riverlight 2014-01-12 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I hear you; it took me a long time to get used to tumblr's perpetual-motion cycle, and it's been weird to realize that I'll never "finish" tumblr or keep up with it, or anything. (Lo these many years ago when I was in high school, I actually was able to "finish" the internet—I read every article in the Yahoo listings at the time for areas I was interested in. Those were the days!) Weirdly, though, I find that the pace of tumblr turns into a filtering mechanism of sorts—I end up reblogging only those things I really care about, after a time.

YMMV, though, obviously. :)
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[personal profile] regcommathe 2014-01-11 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I second the liking the Mavericks upgrade, but my reasons mostly have to do with the whole dual monitor thing.

As far as video conversion goes, I've been using this one lately and it works wonderfully for me. http://www.macroplant.com/adapter/
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[personal profile] regcommathe 2014-01-12 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
Dual monitors make me a happy happy Regimus.

( We are totally still good. There's just only so much acknowledging of Awful Things I can take before my anxiety ramps out of control and it's been a hard winter. <333 Promise. See. TOM QUINN!!!! icon totally signifies general coolness and probably fistbumps or something. Still planning on visiting in March too assuming that I can get the aforementioned anxiety under control and actually get on the plane. )
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[personal profile] regcommathe 2014-01-12 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
Nah, nothing terrible.

I feel like I'm allowed to be scared, y'know. Since I've never done the whole leaving the country thing before. But I also have to keep telling myself that I managed to get in my car and drive from here to CO by myself on what was essentially a whim and that I can do this too.
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[personal profile] dynamicsymmetry 2014-01-11 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I have no opinion about Mavericks, but re: anxiety I have many feelings so ♥♥♥
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[personal profile] ravenrants 2014-01-11 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Night Vale makes everyone happy.
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[personal profile] riverlight 2014-01-12 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Even my father was professing interest in Night Vale when I described it to him!
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[personal profile] littlebutfierce 2014-01-11 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I so hate the thing about maybe switching meds & just dreading the adjustment period, so I hear you on that one. I am sorry the anxiety is so bad right now. ;__;
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[personal profile] zana16 2014-01-11 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I can't do fandom on Tumblr either (and SJ there is so vicious I get mad even at the people I agree with). I finally made feeds for the handful of people I really didn't want to miss and I read them on DW.

I didn't know you were on Goodreads. What's your handle there?
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[personal profile] bibliofile 2014-01-12 09:47 am (UTC)(link)
Comments are good.

[kicks all the brainweasels]
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[personal profile] frogmajick 2014-01-12 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
<3 anxiety sucks.
Tumblr SJ is a special brand of wtf.
Do you rp there? Can you explain to me how it works even? I can't figure it out.
I get your goodreads updates and I like seeing what you're doing.
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[personal profile] jesse_the_k 2014-01-13 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
we hates the weasels.

I think of Tumblr as TV. I get to choose the stations, that's my only interaction.